Wednesday, March 17, 2010
♥ The Burden I Bear
Well alot has happened these past few days.
From being given this odd ability to see the darkness in people's eyes to the contemplation of were I stand in my walk with the Lord God Almighty, to my book.
Last night I talked to Philip, which was really good for me, I have had my hurting emotions building up inside of me for some time now regarding the state of the youth today. I had been trembling for 3 days over the state of this world and am still getting over the jitters.
I literally and truthfully CRIED like a baby to him about it. For in reality the fear of the Lord finally hit me. Just how big his wrath is that will be poured out on the earth. Even during the tribulation period he will still show his mercy in some areas. Hebrews 10:31 says "It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of an Angry God." and it really is. I was so scared last night for my friends, family, loved ones because I knew that some of them would not be joining me in heaven. I was questioning my own authenticity. WHAT WAS I DOING?!
Proverbs 1:7 "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but FOOLS despise wisdom and instruction."
Ignoring the signs about us, being scared to witness to the people around you, your friends at school, your co-workers, your family, anyone... for fear of rejection, you have to question yourself, do I REALLY love them? Do I care? Don't you want to save them from that terrible place they are headed to without Christ. 'Life without Jesus is HELL' That statement is true. Do you want them to go to that terrible place? Their blood on your hands? Give them their choice, your persecution you might receive is NOTHING compared to the eternal torment that they will receive.
You want to know what they will be thinking there in the flames? "Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you ever bring it up and warn me about this horrible place? I thought we were friends..."
"Weeping and gnashing of teeth..." Matthew 8:10
"Lake of fire and brimstone... they shall be tormented day and night..." Revelation 20:10
"Whosoever was not found written in the Book of Life was cast into the Lake of Fire." Revelation 20:15
Why do people ignore this?! WHY?! Because we are to afraid to step out of our comfort zone. When people do become missionaries and go out to stand for the Lord and Saviour praise God. People travel and spread the word, which is wonderful and loving... but even though we are young, we can do something. Right here in our town, on our street, withing our friends and family... we have a mission right here in front of us.
I love this poem it cuts really deep
Taken from: http://www.youtube.com/wat
'Don't bother me...
Don't bother me with souls to save,
I have my own agenda,
There's school to do,
Sports to play,
Important thing to attend to.
Don't bother me with my friend at work,
He's got his own religion,
I don't have time to change his mind,
He'll make his own decision.
Don't bother me with that little girl,
The girl playing in the streets,
She's much to young to understand,
That her savior she could meet.
Don't bother me with the sounds I hear,
The sounds of people shrieking,
Although I wonder who they are,
Who are these victims screaming?
Don't bother me with who they are,
I really don't want the blame,
Cuz' it's my friend at work,
And that little girl...
Who from HELL... Scream out my name.'
This poem just cuts me deep. It's made to make you think. To make you weep.
Does anyone KNOW what it's like to lay in the dark and CRY for souls? I finally do. This world wants people to think that it doesn't need a savior... so why? WHY DO I HEAR THE WORLD CRYING OUT FOR ONE EVERYDAY?!
Why am I sitting here comfortably in this house, in this country, when there are cries coming out from around the world. People are dying for their faith, people are committing suicide, people are crying, hurting, bleeding.
And we wonder what's happening on the football game.
I am accusing nobody in particular. I just have to look at myself and see the lifestyle I live to know something is terribly wrong. I needed this wake up call from the Lord.
I prayed for 2 hours last night to have mercy on me for the ignorance I have been living in. To forgive me and my friends of our trespasses. I groveled at his feet crying and weeping and trembling, because there is nobody in this world who shall be able to stand in front of him.
I am a sinner, saved by the grace of God.
I could of died in 2007 and gone to hell. I know I would of, having biblical knowledge, and good works only won't get you to heaven.
It's a heart condition. I finally gave it all up. If the Lord told me to go to Africa right now to be a sunday school teacher or to start a women's group I would. My life I have given to him, and now I understand. After a year since my return tot he Lord. he has revealed to me his great commission. Made me finally understand a sliver of the pain he must of felt on that cross. I can hardly bear a sliver, anyone who was given the burden the Lord had would die from the agony.
"Take my life and let it be consecrated Lord to Thee."
He's in control now.
He's my first love
The Lord will not have second place, he wants first in your life.
He's the greatest love there is, and more fearful with wrath.
Thank you all,
Esther
P.S. I am rewriting the 4 chapters that I have completed in my book already, i felt that my current version reflected less emotion than than the impact I wanted, but now that I know the pain and worry that God granted me to feel.
I will make this book, make you feel it too.
From being given this odd ability to see the darkness in people's eyes to the contemplation of were I stand in my walk with the Lord God Almighty, to my book.
Last night I talked to Philip, which was really good for me, I have had my hurting emotions building up inside of me for some time now regarding the state of the youth today. I had been trembling for 3 days over the state of this world and am still getting over the jitters.
I literally and truthfully CRIED like a baby to him about it. For in reality the fear of the Lord finally hit me. Just how big his wrath is that will be poured out on the earth. Even during the tribulation period he will still show his mercy in some areas. Hebrews 10:31 says "It is a fearful thing to fall into the hands of an Angry God." and it really is. I was so scared last night for my friends, family, loved ones because I knew that some of them would not be joining me in heaven. I was questioning my own authenticity. WHAT WAS I DOING?!
Proverbs 1:7 "The fear of the Lord is the beginning of knowledge, but FOOLS despise wisdom and instruction."
Ignoring the signs about us, being scared to witness to the people around you, your friends at school, your co-workers, your family, anyone... for fear of rejection, you have to question yourself, do I REALLY love them? Do I care? Don't you want to save them from that terrible place they are headed to without Christ. 'Life without Jesus is HELL' That statement is true. Do you want them to go to that terrible place? Their blood on your hands? Give them their choice, your persecution you might receive is NOTHING compared to the eternal torment that they will receive.
You want to know what they will be thinking there in the flames? "Why didn't you tell me? Why didn't you ever bring it up and warn me about this horrible place? I thought we were friends..."
"Weeping and gnashing of teeth..." Matthew 8:10
"Lake of fire and brimstone... they shall be tormented day and night..." Revelation 20:10
"Whosoever was not found written in the Book of Life was cast into the Lake of Fire." Revelation 20:15
Why do people ignore this?! WHY?! Because we are to afraid to step out of our comfort zone. When people do become missionaries and go out to stand for the Lord and Saviour praise God. People travel and spread the word, which is wonderful and loving... but even though we are young, we can do something. Right here in our town, on our street, withing our friends and family... we have a mission right here in front of us.
I love this poem it cuts really deep
Taken from: http://www.youtube.com/wat
'Don't bother me...
Don't bother me with souls to save,
I have my own agenda,
There's school to do,
Sports to play,
Important thing to attend to.
Don't bother me with my friend at work,
He's got his own religion,
I don't have time to change his mind,
He'll make his own decision.
Don't bother me with that little girl,
The girl playing in the streets,
She's much to young to understand,
That her savior she could meet.
Don't bother me with the sounds I hear,
The sounds of people shrieking,
Although I wonder who they are,
Who are these victims screaming?
Don't bother me with who they are,
I really don't want the blame,
Cuz' it's my friend at work,
And that little girl...
Who from HELL... Scream out my name.'
This poem just cuts me deep. It's made to make you think. To make you weep.
Does anyone KNOW what it's like to lay in the dark and CRY for souls? I finally do. This world wants people to think that it doesn't need a savior... so why? WHY DO I HEAR THE WORLD CRYING OUT FOR ONE EVERYDAY?!
Why am I sitting here comfortably in this house, in this country, when there are cries coming out from around the world. People are dying for their faith, people are committing suicide, people are crying, hurting, bleeding.
And we wonder what's happening on the football game.
I am accusing nobody in particular. I just have to look at myself and see the lifestyle I live to know something is terribly wrong. I needed this wake up call from the Lord.
I prayed for 2 hours last night to have mercy on me for the ignorance I have been living in. To forgive me and my friends of our trespasses. I groveled at his feet crying and weeping and trembling, because there is nobody in this world who shall be able to stand in front of him.
I am a sinner, saved by the grace of God.
I could of died in 2007 and gone to hell. I know I would of, having biblical knowledge, and good works only won't get you to heaven.
It's a heart condition. I finally gave it all up. If the Lord told me to go to Africa right now to be a sunday school teacher or to start a women's group I would. My life I have given to him, and now I understand. After a year since my return tot he Lord. he has revealed to me his great commission. Made me finally understand a sliver of the pain he must of felt on that cross. I can hardly bear a sliver, anyone who was given the burden the Lord had would die from the agony.
"Take my life and let it be consecrated Lord to Thee."
He's in control now.
He's my first love
The Lord will not have second place, he wants first in your life.
He's the greatest love there is, and more fearful with wrath.
Thank you all,
Esther
P.S. I am rewriting the 4 chapters that I have completed in my book already, i felt that my current version reflected less emotion than than the impact I wanted, but now that I know the pain and worry that God granted me to feel.
I will make this book, make you feel it too.
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